Venting

Today is a crappy day!! Mark and I got into a big fight yesterday, and therefore today he isn't speaking to me. If there is one thing I hate is the silent treatment!! Why we have to say such hurtful things to the people we say we love the most is beyond me. Believe me, I am not innocent in this either, I say hurtful things as well, but I at least try to apologize and set things right. I don't know if this happens because we fight as passionately as we love each other, or if there are things beyond repair that he is bringing to the surface of his heart. The idea of that saddens me, but if that is the problem then I can't fix them alone, and he isn't speaking to me. Our marriage has been filled with issues right from the start, and it feels like we have had to struggle more then things have been right and peaceful. This isn't the way a marriage is suppose to be. I know all couples experiences ups and downs, but when exactly do the ups become more frequent then the downs. I know that part of our vows said, "for better and for worse," but sometimes it feels like the worse is more then I can handle. I am mentally and physically exhausted from all of the fighting. I know I shouldn't be feeling sorry for myself as there are people out there with problems much worse then mine, but sometimes a person just needs to vent without hearing someone tell them all the things they should be doing. Isn't it funny that everyone seems to have the answers to every one else's problems? Well I think I've spent enough time on the pity potty for today. Time to put my "big girl undies" on and and deal with things like a grown up.

Just Dance

Tonight is Rachel and Jillian's dance recital, and I am so very excited!! The dance studio where my daughters take classes, ( Kelly's Dance Academy ) always puts on a good show. Rachel, who is 9, has been dancing for 4 years and is an advanced tap and jazz class. I always get choked up watching her on stage. This year she is dancing to Walking on Sunshine for her tap routine, and Miley Cyrus' version of Girls Just Want To Have Fun for jazz. Rachel is really excited because tonight she will also be receiving her perfect attendance trophy again- YEAH Rachel! Jillian, who is 5, has been dancing for 3 years is in a 4+5 year old tap and ballet class. I love watching her smile and wave at me from the stage, she seems like such a little fish in a big sea up there. This year is bitter sweet though as it is her last year in the combined tap and ballet classes. Next year she will have to choose between taking a tap and jazz class or taking a ballet only class. She loves both, and I know it will be hard for her to choose. This year also brings and end to the frilly, puffy costumes that she looks so adorable in. Her class is dancing to Yes Sir I'm Your Baby Now for their tap routine, and Cinderella's Ball for ballet. All of the kids are amazingly brave to get up there on that stage in front of so many people. But enough for now. Good luck to my lovely baby girls tonight, and all the other KDA dancers. Thank you Kelly and staff of KDA for working hard to show off how talented all the kids are.

Welcome Home!!

Just wanted to take a minute and say, " Welcome Home Brosie!!!" Your Aunty Beck missed you very much, and can't wait to see you tomorrow. We are WAY overdue for snuggles, so make sure you get sleep tonight 'cause in the morning it's you and me kid. And while I am here welcome home to your wonderful mommy too. Reb I have missed talking to you without being interrupted by doctors, nurses, respiratory therapist, or some other medical personnel. See you both in the morning. YEAH AMBROSE!!!